Blogging out of boredom.
I don't have enough hours available for surgery so, I will have to find alternative ways to relieve the pain in my hand. I plan to try using a rens unit. And a brace for my finger.
I am also facing some financial woes on my own but, with God's help I will be fine.
Today I go to the ortho doc to get my hand looked at. I think it's arthritis. It hurts 24/7. Will also be doing some gaming today, Updating my Fortnite game as we speak. Yes, even little old ladies play that game. LOL! I think Epic needs to make some old fart skins. *Grins*
Anywho, I have a few dishes and some laundry to do. Also waiting for a grocery delivery later.
I have to dig out my new fans. I sleep with them for the white noise.
Work has been hectic. And annoying. It's difficult when one doesn't have much patience with things. I try but...*shrugs*
I have been trying out different games on Xbox. I found one that wasn't bad but I couldn't afford to buy it.
Have a great day readers!
I turned sixty today. I should be enjoying myself but, I've found myself thinking about my father. Wondering if he even gives a crap. If he's even capable of giving a crap. He refuses to love me or apologize for the crap he's done and said to me. My family quit speaking to me when mom died. Yet they act so surprised that I finally said the hell with and turned my back to them. I went no contact with all of them. And the mutual friends.
I had to. I was left with no other alternative except to take what they were giving me. I refuse to take abuse to make someone else happy. At 60 I am better off without them. If they can't treat me decent and love me because I'm family then they can kiss my ass. I am fine without them.
I just find myself wondering if dad even cares that he's alone. Or that his one link to mother wants nothing to do with him. Or if he even cares how much he's hurt me.
But I've managed to make it to 60 with next to no love and I'm still here. Hoping that some day he'll realize his mistake. But at that point I know it will be too late.
Yup, snow. At least for six to 10 inches. Planning on staying in a sleep room at work until Sunday. Then on Monday it's my 60th birthday. Hopefully I'll be home and playing video games that day. Praying the power won't go out and wreck my food supply.
I hope everyone stays warm and safe during this winter storm.
My friends on some of the forums I go to never say much because they don't understand the stuff I post. It's unusual for an older woman to be into gaming so they have no clue what I'm talking about. So they just like the post and move on. Meanwhile I'm making no connection with anyone.
It makes me sad that I really don't have anyone to talk to that I have stuff in common with. Normal for me. I never have anything in common with anyone. Too weird for my age I guess.
I just need to stop trying. There's absolutely no point in me trying anymore. It gets me nowhere. *Throws in the towel*
I'm just so tired of trying to be normal and expecting people to at least try to talk to me and get along. It's just pointless.