I'm sorry I've had no pics to accompany my blog posts the last few days. I've been busy and pretty upset.
A few months ago I went no contact with my father. I thought I had the emails blocked but they appear to be showing up in my All Mail folder. Great! In one email he states that mom wouldn't like him continuing this silliness. Meaning his communication with me. Silliness. He hurts his daughter and pisses her off after a lifetime of verbal abuse and trying to keep up communication with her is silliness. He can't seem to figure out that he's the source of my pain and I don't want it anymore. It never occurs to him to apologize because he shouldn't have to apologize to his "crazy" daughter. He is lonely and misses having someone to control and verbally abuse and someone to put up with his shit. Those two were made for each other because they were both verbally and emotionally abusive. I will never understand why. Maybe they dealt with that as kids. IDK. But it's fkd up my life and made me miserable. I'm trying to heal and as long as I let him remain a part of my life I can't. If he doesn't figure this out before he goes to his grave then he will take this stupidity with him. Just like mom did. So no more looking in the All Mail folder. Thanks gmail.
Working on the $5000 bill issue. Might take a few days to get things rolling. HR is going to try to help me.
Doing discharges today at work. I clean the rooms when the patients are sent home. I haven't done it for a long time. I'm hurting. I only managed 8 rooms last night but I tried. I did good for not being on oxygen. Maybe today will be better. IDK.
We might see a touch of snow tomorrow as the last of winter keeps it's claws dug in. Hopefully this is the last of it.