I don't know about anyone else but, I hate the holidays. They are difficult for me every year. Especially Christmas because the people I loved most all died in December in different years of course.
It's the worst time of the year for me. I hate Christmas music and all the holiday glee. I don't feel it and I don't want to celebrate it. I will eat the food though cuz I'm not a total nut job.
As I get older, I find myself trying to stay as far away from things that cause me pain as possible. I am no longer interested in just standing there waiting to get hurt. I do my best to protect my peace.
For everyone else who is suffering through the season...just know you're not alone. *Hugs*